Well this week did not start off too grand for me – Just to update new readers – I am extremely agoraphobic (among other things) but because of this – I don’t leave my house. Actually I leave it long enough to go to my doctor’s appointment and then home. I don’t like people near me…around me… looking at me….nothing. So I don’t go out….My home is the safest place to be. Over the years fighting this – I have found that being apart of social sites might be a good way to slowly get used to people and such….well I help run a music lounge – we have djs and lots of staff to move the conversations along and cams where people can get on so we see them….
It has taken me a VERY VERY long time to get used to people on this site…. there are over 9 million members—I never come into contact with that many… but enough on a daily basis. I have a reputation of being extremely laid back, and just NICE….very nice. I am always trying to help others…..I usually can diffuse situations that come up in the lounge…just being the calm nice person.
It has taken me 3 years going on 4 to get me to this point – building trust with those that I work with and massive trust with the people that own the lounge—-now I guess that people that I have had to remove from the lounge may not like me but I truly have never had some have a grudge against me. Well up to now—–someone on a fake account knew my name, went into my pictures, and went to pics of me and left the most nasty comments-calling me names….then proceeded to say that my granddaughter is inbred and a C—. They used that word with me a LOT C—. Just terrible and so ugly. Of course I fell apart. I thought I was safe—–calling me that name among ugly and fat and so on and so forth – all this time of healing just stomped on. Now S who owns the lounge has become a good friend – and she truly helped me through the day – and I reported all the stuff to the powers that own the site and the fake account was banned and all the terrible comments deleted…that made me feel better.
The good in all that – is that I did not quit – did not run away – did not drop out of sight… I am sticking with it – that is a huge step for me!!!! I think that is enough of an update for now – Thanks for reading all this—-PEACE!!!!!
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